The past month has been great. Since Halloween, my days have grown brighter...yet still there is always an ever-looming shadow behind it all. I can't do anything about it now; just have to flow with the current until I know what the hell is really going on.
One Act, a play competition held statewide is coming up in three months. I got the main male lead, not surprisingly. It's kind of pompous to say that, but it is sort of true. The male actors here are good, but only high school good at this point. I've grown more affirmed in my abilities, and that's actually helped me improve. I know I'm good, and as my character goes, I'll keep pushing that limit. So yes, I am the Ragpicker in The Madwoman of Chaillot. Overall it ends up being a supporting role compared to the lead female, but it will give me a shot at that best actor award. As for us advancing? It's a predominantly female play, and we lost our best actresses last year. The one's now...well, if we want state, we're going to have to push them beyond their limits, teach them new skills, etc.
My play is coming along well. In about a month we're having a production composed of several skits. Amongst doing the Riddles in the Dark scene from The Hobbit (Myself being Gollum) Mr. Lowe, my theatre teacher, is allowing me to do a scene from my play as sort of a teaser to the whole play I'm going to do before graduation. It's about a seventh of the way done, but soon it will all be written. Still need to come up with a title though...
Sara and I have grown closer. Though in the back of my head there's still the doubt of us continuing this once I'm in college, we still love each other deeply. I love her...in a way that angers me. I'm growing closer when I know it can't possibly workout. Do not trust to hope but do fight for it, as I always say.
On a slightly less gloomy note...
"Bacon and eggs...freshly squeezed, mango juice"
"Bacon and eggs...freshly squeezed, mango juice"
"What are you so chipper about?"
"Hehheh...Lost myyyy virginity---"
As a quote from Eddie Izzard, my situation is explained. Just a couple of nights ago, I reached a milestone in my life. I had sex with a woman (yes my girlfriend). It's scary...It's so new and different, but even after a second go this night, it got even better, more enjoyable. Yet very scary still...even though she's on the pill, there's still that chance.
As a quote from Eddie Izzard, my situation is explained. Just a couple of nights ago, I reached a milestone in my life. I had sex with a woman (yes my girlfriend). It's scary...It's so new and different, but even after a second go this night, it got even better, more enjoyable. Yet very scary still...even though she's on the pill, there's still that chance.
Christ what if she got pregnant? Both of our lives would be fucked...no. It can't happen. Either way, condoms are the way to go. Better safe than sorry, if it's not already too late...
GAH! Don't think about it. Got enough things on my mind as it is. Until August, if I'm still dating Sara, I'm going to have to figure a way to cast light on this shadow. Maybe we aren't meant to be together? Maybe we are? Experience has proved I'm not good at these things, but usually my assumptions have been correct. Sara is the best girl I've ever been with, but do I want to spend the rest of my life with her?
I still think my future wife is going to be Asian or Native American and love Lord of the Rings as much as I do...and will love to game...and will be really, extremely, and abundantly hot. Yes...that is the criteria. Anywho...I'm off. Happy Thanksgiving everybody.