The past week has been hard in the relations department with my significant other. She's been sick and pissy, and now I find out for the past month she hasn't been taking her medicine. I'm sorry to say this, for those of you who have or think they have mental problems, but true mental diseases can only be corrected my medication. I've seen it far too often with people I've known. The ones who get cured by a shrink never had a problem to begin with; they just thought they did. Those who do have real problems can't be cured by talking it out. It's chemical, so only through medication can you tip the scale to balance it out. A combination a pyschology and medication can work, but it takes great will power. It's like any other illness.
But like I was saying, she has been really pissy, and I've tried to act more concerned, since apparently it's all "me, me, me" and she's making all of the emotional sacrifice. A bit exaggerated if you ask me, but I did as she asked, but when she came up to dallas to celebrate new years with my family, she kept acting all distant, and kind of made awkward for everyone else. I wouldn't say she ruined it, but she did change from something that could have been better.
But like I was saying, she has been really pissy, and I've tried to act more concerned, since apparently it's all "me, me, me" and she's making all of the emotional sacrifice. A bit exaggerated if you ask me, but I did as she asked, but when she came up to dallas to celebrate new years with my family, she kept acting all distant, and kind of made awkward for everyone else. I wouldn't say she ruined it, but she did change from something that could have been better.
This just all runs together with this emptiness. I have no one to talk to, and it's harder to talk to her, even if I could talk to her. This relationship...I don't think it will last. Whether it be when I go to college, or sooner, I don't know, but it feels like it's going to end. I feel like being around her less (also due to us never doing anything) and I don't know what to say to her. If I see her tomorrow, I'm going to sit down and have a talk with her. I need to straighten this out.
It could fix the problem or delay it. I can't tell at this point.
It could fix the problem or delay it. I can't tell at this point.
I don't know what scares me more: That I could lose her, or the possibility of that doesn't hurt me.