Despite talking this all out with her, I still feel the same as before; dread and emptiness. How do I fix this? How do I go back to having the passionate relationship I used to have with her? What do I do? Do I tell her exactly whats bothering me? That I've lost the motivation?
I can't do what I used to. I don't feel possessed to do these incredibly romantic things anymore. Sometimes I feel like they're all for naught, or I'm forcing them out, or they just don't feel right to do. I'm still a child about it all. I have no idea what's going on with me. Is it the season? Or is there really an underlying problem?
*sigh* I want to make love to her, in a way she'll never forget, the best she's had, and please her like no one else before. I want to give her my heart, and make her friends jealous of what I can do for her, but at this point in my life, I don't feel like I can. I can't provide for her like she deserves.